|My Actions are my Responsibility and not the Responsibility of Anyone Else
||[18 Apr 2007|10:50am]
I wasn’t going to post about this but it’s now involving members of my flist and that makes me uncomfortable to say the least.
But the crux of the matter is that, apparently by not immediately posting The Jared and Jensen Interview elsehwere, outside of my LJ, means I don’t share things or want to help fandom but instead choose to keep things to myself.
As I explained to the post in question, where the above insinuation was made, I don’t always have time to check my f-list to see whether requests for media have been posted.
I don't always have time to do things immediately; it takes an effort just to keep up with my own flist and I’m sorry if by that it automatically means some people help and others don't want to.
It's not a matter of want; it's a matter of time. Fandom is a hobby, not a priority. My time is limited, I have a very busy life and I’m not about to go into detail as to why that is.
But as for the insinuation that I keep things to myself, I upload everything I have in unlocked posts and make it available to all. I upload all the episodes, interviews, extras; screencaps etc and they're all on my own server where I pay the bandwidth.
Bandwidth isn't cheap, sometimes an episode alone can generate over 800 downloads a week, over a month that can prove expensive. I recently ripped, converted and uploaded the JA and JP movies by request and made them available to all. I am also paying bandwidth for those.
And I’m not even going to list the media I share outside of this journal.
But you know what, I don't mind.
I've never complained and I have never asked for anything back from fandom, ever, not even so much an icon request or a thank you. I enjoy fandom and get back in spades from that enjoyment and participation and that’s enough for me.
I don’t enjoy remarks that can be construed as calling me selfish, that’s something I have never been and I'm only sorry some seem to think otherwise. Fandom for me is about doing what you can when you can and most of all taking enjoyment from that. It's not about supply and demand and who does what and when or for whom.
Fandom isn’t a competition. I don't have time to play games like that, for me fandom is for fun and enjoying something I love with others who love the same.
If it became something other than that, then I'd reconsider my involvement but I've been a part of fandom for almost eleven years and so far kept to that principle.
But apparently it seems, there are those who help and those who don’t, each to their own opinion.
What matters to me is that this is now involving people on my flist, and that bothers me.
What I post here or anywhere else is my responsibility, where I share it is my responsibility.
It is not the responsibility of my flist to report on what I do or don’t post.
I've apologised for not posting the clip immediately in the community in question. I captured the clip, converted and uploaded it not the people on my flist who downloaded it.
If people downloaded it and enjoyed it then that’s what it’s there for. I think it's unfair to assume, they then have to enable others to do the same or hold them responsible if they don’t. Or accountable for something others think I failed to do.
I love my flist; as much as I stick to the principle that fandom should be above all fun, my flist is important to me. They are the source of what I love most about fandom and it bothers me that they’ve been caught in the crossfire.
Please don't hold them responsible for what I post; I’ll take any and all responsibility for my achievements or failings for that matter.
This is my journal which makes it my responsibility, not theirs.
If anyone has a problem with what I post and where I post it then bring it to me, I can take it. Please don’t use them as a means to vent your frustration, they don’t deserve it.
And for the benefit of my flist or anyone else made to feel responsible for my fandom activities, I apologise.